Happy Friday
Isn't it a great day? The sun is out and it looks beautiful. I can't really say that about my yard. Branches and leaves are everywhere and my flower beds are really pathetic. Boy, do I have my work cut out for me this weekend! Anyone know the weather? I'm bad at paying attention to the weather. I hope it stays nice for a few days.

Project Update
Well, it's not much of one, but I've been contacted about two opportunities. One will really help me (not) - it's a one-hour meeting for a hospital in Baltimore on Tuesday. I'm completely intimidated. They want an HR functional resource for Oracle. Okay, I'm rusty on PeopleSoft but I've NEVER worked with Oracle HR. Apparently they don't think it's necessary for the person to know the application (at least I hope that's the case). I hope their expectations of me aren't very high. I also hope I'm not the only one there. That would suck!

Then this morning I was contacted about a payroll upgrade project here in NJ. That's my biggest fear - finding a project in NJ. Maybe after an out-of-town project I'll be happy about being local for awhile. But, that's the reason I left Commerce!!! Luckily they don't think my payroll skills are deep enough for this particular project.

This brings me to my final concern. No one thinks my skills are deep enough. I realized this like four years ago when I was consulting before. I've had tons of experience here and there which looks pretty amazing on a resume which is why I get hired. BUT, I don't have any real skills!!! I admit it. I'm an expert at NOTHING. I'm SCARED. Yes, I'm admitting it here - I'm freakin' paranoid. Until I get staffed on a project and am comfortable, I'm going to be living in a lot of stress. There ya go. I opened up. I'm vulnerable.

Although, I did get a call that made me feel really good and needed today. Jim called - my former boss at Commerce. He needed me. Yippie. Someone thinks I know something!!! I was flattered. It made my day. I'm sitting here feeling vulnerable and useless and Jim called! Although, it was something incredibly minor. It was nice to feel needed. I wonder if they've filled my old position yet. Maybe they'll take me back. I'm scared here. I'm out of my league.

Anyway, I'm supposed to be writing down my goals for consulting. That's pretty easy - be needed, sucker someone into taking me on a project, and remembering what the heck PeopleSoft does!